lonely or alone

there is a saying tat "u will feel lonely but u will never be alone"...

somehow to9...i feel i am very lonely and alone...is like everything and everyone i know doesnt care about me anymore...

a group tat i always mix over here doesnt seems to care about wat i feel...they doesnt care...and this make me sad...they make me feel like i am nothing...not even making me feel tat i am a fren inside their heart...this make me so sad...is it tat frenship tat we make after our secondary sch is just a temporary relation tat everyone be fren of u coz they need somehting from u ? and me...still hav to face them and smile to them...as a clown to them...when they need to be entertain they find me and when they do not need it...they left me aside like a wooden puppet and even i try to do anything 10 times better than a person but to them tat person will always get the crowd...

some of old frens making jokes on me...well...their intention i know they mean no harm but sorry...for the time being...i dun need a joke...wat i need is some frens support and some caring words...i dun like the feeling being make fun while all of u are laughing and i dont even know wat is going on...i hate tat...very very much...

i look into my contact list...to make a call and talk to someone...surprisingly...after looking thru the whole list...i dun even feel like calling anyone from the list...i got a feeling tat whoever i called will not comfort me...i feel very very sad tat i couldnt called anyone to talk to...not a name in the list can make me feel tat "yup...he/she is a right person to talk to"

frens over here...when starting all seems to be nice and caring...but after time passed...everyone changed o shud i say reveal their true self...backstabbing each other...talking ppl bad things...influence ppl wif bad thoughts...especially tat person...i hated u...turning most of frens here being the same as u...backstabbing...

i already started to hate a few ppl bcoz of ur influence on them...i dunno y...they keep getting influence by u eventhough u they know u are wrong...i feel like is my fault bringing u into this grp...now i started to hate everyone in the grp and everyone in the grp like abandon me...

life sucks here...and i thought tat i might get a new exp here wif good things...and thx to u all...it proves me wrong...

fairy tales

is 2am in the morning and here am i now alone in my room and all the quietness...
it makes me tot of sumthing not very important to my study...

i belief tat each and everyone of us hav heard about fairy tales like snow white, sleeping beauty and bla bla bla...at the end of the story...they like to end the story wif they live happily ever after...full stop...

wat about after tat ? did they really get along wif each other well ? did they not quarrel for anythings ? did they not love each other anymore and they divorce ? wat if prince charming from snow white meet sleeping beauty ? did he change his mind and after sleeping beauty ? they never say...

and all these years we've been surrounding wif the happily ever after thingy and belief tat it really happen...but does it really happen ?

but then another movie come into my mind...shrek...after rescue the princess and sumthing happens...and so on and so forth...well...at the end they live happily ever after...however...this movie did mention sumthing after they 1st get along wif each other...parents...rivals...but at the end their trust for each other had prevail...

so...do couples nowadays really fully trust each other ? i guess some will say half half lo...and some will say yeah of coz i trust him/her but those are not wat their heart is thinking...

hm...just a tot and wanna share...haha...
well...enuff of these crap...better sleep early...lol

p/s: wanna thx my mama for cooking mee and giv me lychee to drink...hehehe

Assignments

is there even a small pieces of brain tat is still contain inside lecturers head...especially those who are already got their doctor o watever...i wonder is it they use up the last bit of their brain for their viva o they dun even hav it under their skull from the beginning.

final year ad...they know we got fyp to do but still they giv us so so so so so so so so so so many assignments to do and we cant even hav time to breath o take a few days off to o somewhere to relax...dun hav to mention those who are ad start their lab work for their fyp...

i wonder is it when they at uni they suffer the same situation and now they are taking revenge against us...come on la...if u all lost ur brain pls go to implant it back la...so many lec meeting together not even one would think about the student, all just know how many assignment to giv for this sem and HOW TO MAKE STUDENTS SUFFER FOR THIS SEM...

go to ask them, they say...this assignment is for ur own good...after doing so u will know more about ur fyp how to do..."kiss my ass"...ur worthless assignment dint even hav any tiny bits of link to our fyp...and ur assignments will just make us no time to do our fyp things...is this call help...is helping u to fail and so tat u can stay here for one more year to let them tortured u...

this sem from beginning till now almost end of sem...we still hav to rush for at least 6 assignments to pass up...tat dint include the fyp project 1...even mid term also no time to go study...

supervisor for our fyp project even no brain...in face more brainless...ask us to let him check the proposal and guess wat...all we get is scolding and saying u all bring me these kind of things...is very unfair to me ba...hey mister...do u think we are experts ad...of coz we will make mistake ma...ur mood not good u come and scold us...and saying we treating u unfair coz giving u things like tat...hav u ever think tat u treating us fair enuff ?...if u say yes...then there is nth in this world is unfair liao...RM 1 change wif RM 100...fair ma...

cis...lecturers...is peoples tat wif their mouth full of shit...

time tat i dun hate lecturers is when angels will fly out from ur ass...

piece of my mind

i hav been playing a psp game which title is "三国无双"...
is about using a char inside the well known story of three kingdom and fight thru several stages and unlock more char...
guess wat...i hav been fighting for so long and yet...i still lose to the same stage and the same boss...no motter how i combo o use as many tactics as possible...but the dam stupid idiot computer controlling boss just can break my combo and counter me back and instantly combo me to the DEATH...wtf
so i repeat again and again just to fight thru tat stage...and guess wat...no matter which way i take i will see tat dam boss and get killed...even if i high lvl than him...
dunno who invented this stupid game...make me tulan nia...zzz